Torn and bruised from the outside it hurts so much to breathe
I get on the train and try forget all that
It will be fun you know its not all that bad
Whata brave girl you are travelling in the woods
Being here
With all these people you dont know
On sunday
Gloom day
Massaging all the weakness into a glimmer of strength
Walking into the world with my mums words
CMon get up go!
And suddwnly for a while i forget all the pain inside me
All the heaviness i carry with me
All the anger i have within me
All the frustration i hold
All the broken anticipation
And all the pain i feel from that infected heart
And i buy a funky white jacket remembering the conference and imagining a strong woman
With a navy white stripped skirt as well
With her2 posters and her strong admiration to look proud
And then i walk into other sections
And i remember the presents i have to buy
I chooee pink
And then i say that i chose
Pink
And
Then
It happened
It was walking towards matalanthat the words came out
And suddenly
I justcouldnt cope anymore
I didnt want to be here anymore the pain was just too much
All the pus coming out
My heart aching for a futur so dim
The power of lonliness
Gushing through
And suddenly i was crying looking at clothes
I was crying choosing a flat white from costa
I was cryig sitting drinking my cold flat white although i had told her i wanted it extra hot
No point talking to her
No point saying what i wanted
What would make me happy
Because nothing in the world right now
Could make me happy
No
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