Monday browns

Sitting in a tiny cafe on a tiny hilly street where i suddenly remembered to come here because i wanted freedom and iwanted ties the freedom of knowing all tasting trying having knowing and the freedom of exploring but the ties of someonetelling u this place is good or the ties of trying something before u go ... And i am going soon

It doesnt feel soon

But it is

For today could be a last monday

Brown monday 

Bitter cold

For my capuchino looked sexy as hell but was definitely cold

But isnt life

Is t it all

The times u do get it the way u want

Steaming hot

Cherish it

Love it

Enjoy it

Cultivate it

I have spent

A while here

3 months here

It feels like forever maybe it was

In the dusken chilly seaside town 

Where i did benefit

In the end

Built up my core right to the core

Taught myself that i am smart kind young sexy bright happy healthy alive

And certainly have potential to be who i want

For i was what i wanted here

New

And old

I was reminded of the way i used to be but with a twist

More responsibility

More friends

More coffee

I love who i am

I want to cherish that

I dont know why i stopped writing

Because writing is really the substitute for 

Understanding 

Maybe ijuststarted drinking cofees instead

now i want to do both - love life and happiness

Close to the end

2 more mondays until i see him

Cuz we never count the daywere in

I hope he misses me like i do

Maybe more maybe better

I hope he enjoys life with me

I hope he explores new things 

With me 

And i hope he too savors a goood coffee with me

Ya rab

I hope i close my eyes and open them and find am on that 6.18 train

For im impatient with love

And  am lost in time

And am hoping for miracles

And am tired of normality

And i am thankful for the way my life is

And am thankful that african gene is on its way

And am thankful for everything.... Everything ya allah