Tommorow ..is the new year

Sort of like a hidden contest that I could win
a secretive door that  Icould open
that nobody knows but me
for suddenly instead of being given one chance to try again I have another chance
1435
its funny how when you think that its 2013 but its reall 1435
and that means that we really are in the old ages
we are the ancestors and we are the ones to be written in history
we are history
when its 2013 in true time and true date
where will muslims be?
where will Sudan be?
where will I  be?

all very hard questions
all questions I cannot answer
all giving me an image that really there is nothing more important but to remember faith and God


so why then have you stopped raising the alarm? and why have you stopped waking up
its not that early you know
...
1435....
I hope God makes it happy and I make it worthwhile


ameeen

1435 and a modern thought

Now ...2 or 3 days,,,

Less now - so how about it - ANOTHER chance that God has given you
and itsa bittersweet chance
a secretive jewel
a hidden clock with more time found
a sweet sweet with no calories
a delicious chocolate when you reach that day
just imagine the perfect timing
a present today that you never imagined would come

a new year is coming at a new beginning and a last chance
so how about you get up from the rubble of yesterday and spider solitaire
and walk to the shower believing that you can come out clean by just one healthy prayer
and start dancing your mess away until you carve all your unintentional and blind sighted dark substitutions with fate
and start reminiscing of a Hope that was one a memory like a horse and wants a future like a peacock
velvety rare nature and king personality

In my arms_ 0 days to go_part2* ( The Countdown)

I’m sorry God for wasting so much time in this 2008
I hope you forgive me, begin me with a new fate
2009 represents for me first a chance to change
To make you proud, to widen my range
Into the perimeters of success, possibilities and amazement
Into creation, talent and no wrong arrangements

Second, I dream to inspire myself and then others
I dream to achieve, perceive and never deceive
I dream to forget the devil and open a new chapter with your angels
I dream to ambassador my elegance as I walk and talk...
I dream to fulfil, commit and motivate my soul
I dream to unite, upright and stay bright

In the previous year, I was confused and lost
In this previous year I was of poor cost
Valuing nothing of what I aspire to pay
Nothing expensive for the price that I say

2008 gave me some open doors, achievements and good days
But nothing like what I really desire, want to reach and never to succumb
Mistakes blotted my year, cries puddled by fears and my time was not so dear
Hesitations were high; everything was low – compared to my hidden glow

2009 is where the glow shines
2009 is where my costs rise
2009 is how my life will change
2009 is how my days will grow
Into better, stronger, wiser
2009 is the way my heart will fulfil
2009 is the way my body will win
2009 is the time my energy needs
To use all its power to achieve
2009 is the bridge to the future
2009 is the cut of the past
The difference that will last
2009 is my moment
2009 is my goals, my dreams, and my reality merging into truth
2009... is me

This concludes my countdown over the past 5 days. My message is strong and I have so many dreams to begin. Next is the outlook towards 2009. Next is 2009. Next is the chance I've been waiting for .

In my arms_ 0 days to go_part1* ( The Countdown)

As I mentioned when we leave things for too long sometimes we forget how to change them – or they become solidified deep within us that they are almost impossible to kick out –
2009 is the weapon – it is the start

The way I will see it – a powerful weapon to change any impossibilities into 100% possibilities

Nothing will be impossible in 2009

In my arms_1day to go_part2* ( The Countdown)

Fear* a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.

Feelings of fear episodically try and dramatize their genes within me... they fear I am throwing them all away in one day... Grasping against my freedom to be strong and determined, I will rise over fear. No fears, fears that once held me from living, from discovering, from becoming... They try and chain me as I try and unchain me and the war battles on... No fears will step with me, no fears will live in me, All fears will be united to vanish into the memories of the past year and NEVER this new and bright year .2009 represents a solid entity that I resemble of my Beautiful, Islamic, Modern, Romantic, Elegant nature that will only incorporate... EXPENSIVE STRENGTH.

In my arms_ 1 day to go_ part1* ( The Countdown)

A new day has arisen ...A new chance is being born for I to conquer... let me enter into the realms of the new hour open and ready... ready to succeed, to change, to believe in myself and to accomplish...all that was impossible...all that was hard.... in this new year, let me be divine, elegant and self gracious,,, let me be modest, daring and truthful to my goals. I want to banish my voids and polish my elements to the highest luster. Let me find peace of mind, MY mind, my thoughts, my second, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, year, 2009 year....

In my arms_2 days to go ( The Countdown)

Sometimes when we leave things for a long time they get harder and harder... to achieve... it’s like we forget why we wanted to do these things and how exactly we felt when we first.... I mean FIRST took them on. 2009 represents the start... The start that I need to begin something that

IVE never failed and I never will. Everything in 2009 will have this representation.

In my arms_4 days to go... (The Countdown)

All the mistakes I have created are part of my mind. They will always be... but the genius is the person that is able to dissemble their grasp. Laziness is a sacred failure. Negligence is the partner that loves kissing disgrace. Nothing will work if I let those aspects become any part of my discovering personality. Sleep is a methodical miracle. Dark angel didn’t sleep... only 4 hours every couple of weeks... she had the personality of a hero... the strengths of a true achiever... Too much sleep simply destroys time... And I need time as a tool in 2009. Temptation is a beautiful weakness but a fatal nightmare if lost control with...messed around with. I think about temptation and what it has done in my LIFE...what it can do... like a hypnotisation to pull me back a thousand steps... like a poison to destroy all the hard work... Temptation as I said is beautiful though...I will always have the temptation to fall in Love, live a fantasy, live a dream...but NOT TODAY...TODAY... I am in a realistic sphere only twirled magnetically into the makings of ME....

In my arms_ 5 days to go... (The Countdown)

I feel exhilarated as trails of thought begin to form. So many things I can achieve, so many dreams I can make them all come real. I feel the air begin to collect into a meaning and suddenly my breaths are for a reason...my heart beats faster and a gush of true blood inspires my aspirations... I want to win. I can do anything I desire, deal with any nomadic problems and make them disintegrate as part of the whole project... The prize project. I realise that I need Gods love and approval... he who doesn’t have ‘Deen’ will never be seen. And my objective is to be seen and heard and felt... I realise that this is not an easy task; to gain God’s true love and be worth his while... but then people don’t become important for doing nothing... I realise that I have to make a choice between the right choice, wrong choice and the easy choice. My mind is dazzling with images of the future... days of hard work are yet to be ... but as this year comes to a close and a new year begins to unlock its doors open ...I realise that this is the chance to begin life again... It is a door that I must open fully... break the chains... Never look back...
2009 represents for me... A new me... A wonderful me... one that even I have never seen before...6 days. Until 2009...it is in my arms to begin now. In my arms to change this day into TODAY.