just because of a sentence

NO it could never be like that
twisted conversations becoming normal
ordinary people making somehtin extra ordinary
broken words becoming a sentence
silent lips kissing each other
beautiful eyes meeting each other
different music meeting

YES it could never be like that
two random people becoming sensual
strangers channelling friendship
drawing a future together
one that looks like a beautiful picture
one that looks like a gallery portrait
no one else can finish that picture
because the lines are unique
the colours are rare
and the merging is charachteristic

NO it could never be like that
I smile at the possibility having been sad just a few moments ago Ive forgotten it  and that makes me smile more
I close my eyes and imagine.... His driving and me changing music
we're going home after a family party
and I looked beautiful because he was happy
and he's happy becasue I'm his

YES it could never be like that
but you know its strange
normally
I have a heart that beats by this time
and a memory that runs without brakes
and yet now I cant feel anything
i must be dead
I just .....I guess I have accepted the reality that there is dress coming up where it will be any colour but white.....

and now Ive forgotten my smile and am sad because I think
there will be a picture never drawn
never seen
never felt
and it will be lying somewhere the empty canvas
lying somewhere far away
lying there
waiting for us
empty.................
forever

Love is not for me

What hurts is the dashing misconception of the wind that blows romance so unwillingly into my desires. Everything in me yearns for passion in waiting for handsome bodies to enter their soul. I search for the conduct of destiny in hope to find tranquillity in the existence of fury of love.

Love... I am tired in tying to define love...with all its attributes of wonder the sore bruises are too heavy on my heart. I drizzle with rain of memories and exceedingly smile feverishly about the future, but somewhere I cry cold to the air thinking about what if that air was thinner to understand my language that I breathe, countryside’s of poems and I always view the same landscape... love is not for me and with it i am never free.

Forgotten Diamond

I have thrown a diamond away
It was precious, but I would have lost it anyway



But one day....


I thought it was going to stay
Forever and Forever I dreamt it would be
This diamond and me
In the morning it would have shined in my heart
And at night it would have glowed for us to start
Spending hours

Becoming one power

Always and forever I would have worn him on my hand
A treasure for a long time I took to our tale
But then it was stolen, my hand went pale
Everything changed by a visit to the sea
Outside and abroad my diamond did not plea
It saw the horizon, the likes of being free

Was not with me

And I prayed and prayed that he would understand
But everday quality was cheapening like the grains of broken sand
Please, please shine for me
I can't , can't you see??
You and I, We don't belong
I am not beautiful with you

Tears fall down my diamonds dew

Let me go, his whispers so far
But their echoes radiate from a cracked message in a travelling jar
Tears of millions fall through my veins
My diamond is giving me the world of pain
I have no choice but to thow it far away
And bury it all day after day
Slowly, I trace the memories of him on my hand
As my sadness commands

To take the glamour of love off
And sell my emotions to a silent bidder of control
When I look out I am alone
In the silence of a deepening ocean of hurt and a vast forest of secrets
Everything holds no reason
Walking or running, I must forget
The hardest part yet

I bought that diamond with my love and hope
I looked beyond the wildest scopes of love and fantasy
For us to be together, a unit of destiny
But he didnt trust me, to make him happy
To make him expensive with faith and family
He didnt see my dreams, my inner colours and ideas
He only saw my outer layers
Layers and layers..............



The ocean calls my name, the waves game of fury
Give us the chance you've been waiting for
Give us the breath you've been trying to reach
Give us the time you've been desiring
Give us the man you've been loving
And we will take all your treasures and make them part of the oceans history
Like everything else, like everyone else that comes here
I know my diamond will be safe
Swirling through time, twirling as it falls in the waters rhapsody,
There is a peaceful calamity of this forgotten

They should have

They should have traveled together

They should have tried

To stay together forever

But something has died

They were once strong and kind

But reality changes people's mind

Time doesn't always heal

Sometimes it ruins how you once used to feel

They should have been an example

To what true love means

They should have never forgotten their beautiful sample

But now they are made up of deteriorating scenes

Unforgiveness

Impatience, Misunderstanding

And Blame

4 terrible words to take away what once easily came

They should have stayed in each others company

Filled with good memories

That they made through history

That should have been written for eternity

But scrolls of tragedy

Are being formed in their galaxy

As stars become weak

And get dim as we speak

Flickering mistakes until it gets dark

They can't even miss that no more do they spark

Darker and darker - their relationship sinks

Into the depths of misery as silence links

Their eyes and their thoughts

They should have helped one another to never give up

They should have told their Love to never stop

They

Should

Have

..............Done a lot of things to save it all

But they did a thousand things to bring their fall

I miss what they were and what they should have been

But at least I have it in memory to cherish ,alive and clean

The only archive of evidence

Of what is no more seen

Just a part... of being apart...

I feel betrayed


Deep in my memories I cry to my fears as they continue to grow


Forever clapping for the show


In the darkness


I feel betrayed
By shadows that consume my wants and desires, they have the power to take whatever it is I cannot afford to buy


my love, my dreams, my passions


I feel betrayed


By so many souls


I feel betrayed


By wrong answers


I feel betrayed


By too many pains in my heart


I...feel...betrayed


Like a tune now stuck in my head


This is the position I tread


Losing all the ability to grasp your mind


Or control your eyes


Or begin to understand you, understand me


I feel betrayed that something so beautiful is so far away


I feel betrayed that you just cannot stay


With me...


You come when I'm gone and leave when I arrive


Like portals of fantasy you are the invisible drive


That passes in the swiftness and torment of my tears


You never try to rescue me from whatever appears


I scream for your attention that you should give me a chance


But you come when I'm gone and leave when I arrive


In the corners of my life you hide with no suprise


You will always be going when I come and leaving when I arrive


You look away and listen to everything not in my eyes





I drain colour


Lose armor


Gain a pale complexion of a breaking connection


Wires of love have been cut but


Leaving exposed nerves of feelings too painful to not


Kill


And it's easy


I mean...


You come when I'm gone and leave when I arrive


It's easy to slit my hopes into 2


Shatter the hurt into 4


Tear the loss into millions of fresh emotions soon to die in my arms


I breathe for your amazing charge


I beg for this romance that could be... so large


But


I feel betrayed


When I remember


We are in different directions


You will always come when I'm gone and leave when I arrive

But I think I love you more and more everyday

I think I want you more and more each day

I think I cry too many hours in my soul

I think I cannot forget how painful is my fall

I think I remember all the time what it feels like to never be noticed in you

I think I know how hard it's going to be to stop wishing for you

I think I've learned what it feels like to be betrayed...by you