Aircons in wrong countries

It made me so happy -The look on the wall the lightness in the air the feel of the remote in your hand as you decide on 19 or 21 degrees and the energy in the fan

My tears fall as i remember my sudan house the buzz they made when the machine magically turns on and you know there is coolness coming in the desert heat

And when the electricity dissappears the silence the house makes as they go queit

…

And now here all the way here

In europe

One got installed

The sadness it brought me

It was like it asked 

How are my old friends ? 

And i had to say we lost them to the war. 

And then a silence

As times and thnigs lost came into view

The new aircon cooled my memories but somehow blasted my heart into fire

For i ownded things in sudan

And only rent here….barely rent here

There were 18 aircons in our house

….

And im barely surviving here although i have to be the strongest

Im such a hyppocrite too