Broken hearted girl

I Realise I am the most broken hearted girl
in my world, the world
in the worst state of broken heart
I could never have a bigger slash
or a deeper wound
I could never be more hurt
or feel so disconnected with good
Suddenly
I lose control

giving everything you built
in a lifetime
for a second or two seconds divine


I am broken hearted for I have lost the chance to remain strong
but now, just a fewseconds later
i can see amillion ways I Could have been strong
that I didnt take
I lead myself to this
which is why I am broken hearted

I could never be more broken hearted
For I have lost every bit of faith
its like i angry and mad
at who?
or what?
its no ones fault but myself
I have lead people to talk abot me
and think about me
and wonder about me
jsut like im quesitoning myself now


suddenly im so silent
suddenly im just so suprised
and so pained
at what weakness can do

but its my own fault im weak
its my own fault im like this
there is no point on blaming other people
that got me down
no matter what theyve done
I choose my options
I choose my thinking
I CHOOSE MY THINKING

I'm broken hearted because I Feel so small
Ifeel like im thorned
i feel like Im embarrassed from the creator
I cant mention his name


IM broken hearted because today is friday
and it feels like the last day
it feels like I jsut want to open some door and never come back



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