The mean gift

Keep strong
know your limits
know your tears
 taste them but dont drown in them
feel them but dont let them burn
wipe them away before they melt you
and you become one of those...
arrogant self centred women who really are kind inside but mean on the outside
like you know who and ...who

you know the translation is I dont give a !"£$ about your party
my translation is : I wish i was there

but things are going to improve
dont break down
like all the cars whos last fun ride was a million years ago
and dont tear apart
like bread broken to feed
untamed and unpolished

and dont give up
and dont be one of those...

thorned women
dont be the blade to cut you open
and unnerve you
you have to keep strong
remember
it will happen
you just have to believe and be patient
and remember that whatever the reason
it will go away one day
so dont give up
and dont lose hope 

find your balance

where are you>?
the one i K now
the one i used to believe in ?
the one i cared about and the one i understood
where are you... hope
the one i trusted
not to let me down
not to break down
and not to feeel down
where are you?

i tried to find you in the midst of pain and calamity
surrounded by exxagurated stress and applications unknown their benefits
except to confirm madness inside your head
or was it positives and negatives and yess and then noos
or was it to read all peoples dramas and calamities
or was it to remember that you arnt alone
but as always you are always not using things correctly
out of balance
you are out of balance
it is sad
that you have to erase
have to eradicate
have to destroy
for you simply



cannot control yourself it is
sad
how do you expect your body to sync in with balance if your whole mind, soul and body are out of balance

where is your balance
where is your freedom to control and choose the right way
where is your start and your end
where is your happiness
where is your understanding and your patience
where is your trusti n Allah
not the trust where you are on a deadline
but the one where you firmly await his plan

that trust

here you are in Valentines day
do you even love yourself?
do you even care?
how out of touch are you with yourself
with your work
with your true feelings
with your sadness

it is ok to be sad
but it is not ok to be useless
it is ok to feel worry
but it is not ok to become a worried human being
a worried woman
you can see it in your eyes
the lines
the frowns
the despair

doesnt even let you see the good side of things
like how things are starting to pay off
like how you are close
inshallah
like how you are there
like how you can and you will
like how you are strong
and you are strong
you are hope
and your body is hopeful and you are filled with health
and trust of faith

dont give up now
 

Life after Sanaa 8

Hello dear

And goodbye

I wish u well and i wish u my dreams

I wish u my hopes and inside you i wish u my love and my tears

I wish u my goodness and my health

I wish u my adventures and my stories 

I wish u my heartbeats and my positives 

I wish u my strengths and my smiles

I wish u everything well

But i know it can not be by just me

I know it cannot be without allah 

Is it proportional to my kindness

To my ways 

To my prayers

Of course

So all i can give u 

Is my proportions

And my promises

The real ones

It is empty without u

But i will never give up 

i wish ... not to be like her

its sad to hear about other peoples problems
i wish them no pain
and i am afraid of comparisons
but i know none can compare
but life is a mystery
i wish to be heard
i wish to be found
i wish to have
and i always ask what about others
what do they want?
and i make the wrong predictions and think
probably not
but then i hear
probably yes
i wish i was a better person
i hope things are better
i hope my body is strong
i hope it forgives me for all ive done
and that it prepares for life as if its a cleanse
i hope allah helps me and protects me
i hope he heals me
and i hope everything comes true
ya rab make everything come true
for me and for others who want
but ya allah help me
and  please let it all come true
ya rab
ya rab

as for others
the fragrance
the perfume
the beautiful smell
i wish luck
i wish and pray  that she is not suffering
and i wish that becomes in a happier world
i wish i come in a happier world
filled with results that are positive and days that are new and strange
and unique
ya allah
let my days be new and unique

Be positive

Dont be negative 

Be the positive u want to see

Be the patient with a smile

Let your body understand that you are not afraid or worried or angry

You have to be patient

You have to have better eyes

Otherwise

Things will fall apart

You wont know where to look

It will be a misery

And allahwont be there for u with eyes like those

Or times like thiswhere u need him and u are just faar awaay

And yu dont believe in his kindness

Remember 

Things will always happen and theyll happen to you because ur a good person and allah wants the best for u and the kindest 

And wants happy everything

So be happy

Be positive

And trust allah it will turn out that way 

Unsettling

Death is always unsettling 

Always moving

That time u lose someone near or far

Im sure

Ur heart skips a beat

U think 

Oh no 

That was the last time

And it simply hurts

U hurt for the loss

The empty space

U hurt for the sadnessthat they have to endure

The good and the bad memories 

The short and the long

U have to endure time and moments where u have to be alone

In important memories

U have to endure all the disorgznisAtion

The bad news

The tears

The everything

And then... 

Youhurt for being selfish

For all the times u were jealous

For all the time u were mean

Or all those times u were broke

U wish u tried

U wish u cared more

U wish u did things better

U wish u remembered the last time

Or the last fate

Or the last smile

Or even that last push

Theres always a last time for everything

And i just hope all my negatives are done

Always wrong

If u just shut ur mouth 

U didnt hear

اتقي شر الزول ده 

اصلا انتي اتاريك ضعيفة 

ما مرغوبة قريهة 

قايلة نفسك زول وانتي ما زول 

امشي شوفي حاجة تعمليها 

امشي شوفي زول تقنيعه 

امشي شوفي زول توريه كيف بتعملي

كل من لسانك كل من كلامك

كل من قهرك لي نفسك

عشان كد بتخلي الناس اقهروك

كل من كل شيء

عدم الاحساس

عدم التوازن 

عدم الاحساس

كل غلط

كل غلط

كل غلط

كل بطال

كل شين فيك

كل شين فيك

انت انسانة قهرة 

انت انسانة اليمة