Waterfull

I clean
as water comes back to my life


i feel like im removing old layers of my ugly days and the smell of lemon citrus comes to save me
makes a new me
bubbles and water shine up my room and I am now

filled with water
filled with angels for they only come to the clean

I am filled with life

I clean
eternally

all my past miseries
all my last worries
and begin a new night

thinking
every time i go to nas khalti su3ad I become a new person
but this time
i will always be a newer person
that will be irreversible
and i will never turn back
i will never regret
and i will never forget
that i aim to be like them

God please help me clean all my cracks
and all my tracks
I want to wash everything inside me
and wait for it dry
I want to scrub all that makes me
until it shines
I want to wipe all that is within me
until it glows
 I want to change everything taht is me
until I become ....the role model




I clean
all that is mine
and now everything is divine

washing my life is blissful
and i am sad i was never like this before

I clean
all that surrounds me
until it shines and reflects me

the woman i see that wants to be me

full of water
full of life
full of love
full of time
full of energy
full of good things
full of good things

 

waterless

today is one of those days
where my life is short
and im annoyed
because water is like gold
and i threw it away
only to need it so much in an instant
and feel like im stuck
and choking
today is one of those days
i just want to pass
and not get distinction or important
advice
today is one of those i wish i rewinded time
and maybe i could have done some things different
like saved water
or saved life
today is one of those days
that i dont like
and that i dont want
and that i wish i cold skip
because because of me
i have made others worry
when really i am the one who should be worried
as i feel waterless

writing in secret in midtown khartoum

work writing
I can barely breathe from happinness but all I see is goodness in my heart shining
This is the best life that ive been looking for and althoug hi cant believe
although i cant feel it because im so numb
all i can do is decide this

i wil never be unhappy again
i will never be lazy
i will never be ungrateful
and i will never lose hope

god has challenged me many times and now
although he is challenging me
he is giving me life as i wanted
as i wanted and better
and life takes time but it also
requires speed to say

i am happy right now and that is it
i sit here amongst a sudden change in my life again
thinking there are about 5 6 doors ahead of me better than
the 1 door that was open for me just before
i think this is like a miracle
can i do it?
i dont know
do i want to do it?
definietely


ya rab forgive me for all my sins
and since ive started a new page jsut now just right now
let me never blacken it
ir dirty it
or fail you
ya rab
remove all my worries and fears
and let me be the one i dream to be

that woman nispirational
that woman beautiful
that woman memorable
that woman confidant
that woman tempting
that woman who can be a friend lover and mother
that woman that can be smart , intelligent and helpful
to a nation lost for need

 

The best plan_ (POW)

Learn how to speak.... from the Quran

Coloured Quran - very inspirational

 

M & A 8 ....Shall I

Shall I become the everlasting one

Shall I give you girls and sons

Shall I be so romantic until you shiver

Until I finish and you quiver

Shall I write words never written

thinking of your lips and my skin bitten

Shall I tempt you into forever

Until I scream and you deliver

Shall I linger over you until you breathe

or do you want me to come and tease

Shall I continue until you melt

until you have what youve never felt

Shall I touch the deepest part of you

until you feel that my deepest is true

Shall I travel where we want to go

 Alone across oceans so we begin slow

Shall we create our own flow

Shall I be with you so I show

You

How much you make me glow