Called everything will be ok suddenly and you just don’t worry about anything except the dreams
Worrying creates pain -
So dream instead
Now I have added this extended pressure that I cannot make positive no more
Habits strengthen me and solidify my weaknesses filling the cracks with lava initially that hurt but after cooling make things alright
Why not you?
Why can’t you?
Why so slow?
Why like this and not that?
Didn’t we say comparisons were the worst!
And now here I am comparing this amazing man with no man
A story with a bigger story
Myself with my dream self
My old self with this nobody
My now with someone or something invisible
And yet the visible I. Choose to ignore
My health
My mind
My intelligence
Suddenly I’m thinking I’m the worst writer in the world rather than I’m a new writer with so many possibilities
And why did I forget all that I have written ? All my abilities and capabilities and the most important
Passion and belief
I’m suddenly giving up all this hard work and effort for nothing
Suddenly pushing aside all the hard work I have to really do
Giving my ears and everything away.
What does it all matter?
Just dream on eh?
Suddenly, life is back to being messy back to being goal less
Back to being too much for me
Back to being what it was like before Ramadan
But isn’t that what I exactly asked for would not happen
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