Thanks dear! lol I thought about that and he is definitely not hurting me in terms of me loving him -but I suppose in a weird way it hurts to think how I thought of him when we first met - I mean I REALLY liked him - loved him - and I dont know will u understand cuz u hate sudanese guys!! but I thought he was perfect - like we would get married and he would know all about my life and ways cuz he lived like me and vica versa and I dreamt and dreamt that it wud be perfect - Now I know I sound like I'm not over him but I AM
I suppose I'm not over the dream- Of finding that perfect guy! In a way everytime I think of him I remember I lost the dream - and then I suppose I know it sounds weird again - but sometimes I feel in my heart that if he was different- in the way he thought and lived and who he was - then he would have been able to love me back - does that make sense? probably not - like I just feel that if he thought differently - if he had a different personality and dreams I feel I would have fitted in the picture - I know I'm trusting myself a bit much here - but u dont kno - that summer - it was --- Oh I dont know! what am I saying seriously though... I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM anymore - Don't be smirking at me when u read this!!! OR I WILL KILL U LOl!!!!
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