Drive

Black city that runs in my veins escaping through the motorways of anxiety and fear that a red traffic light will suffice to slow me down. I wonder about my junctions and my functions, battery of remedy to electricute my past and blast me into the future so I can drive.. Drive into never never land, drive into me, drive into you and drive into light - but light is far away from hope, drive.....

I drive into my mind to find explanations and reasons, why and when's fly by like highway signs, I forget the brand but i know the meaning - I remember what i should buy - lies and a dry bottle of water. pain seeps through my throat, my gut, my stomach like pain is food to begin with - I sit - still - too many arrows giving me unknown directions, too many memories swaying my dreams.... my dreams.... what were they? where did they go - the only want and desire is to find them - i sip on my broken thirst and turn the gears to find time once more - I screech on the brakes to protect and I open the engine to steam out the steams of tears that collected in my imagination - - i don't know does the car need more oiL? do i need oil - to lubricate the stiffness in my bones - the stiffness .... the way I see my eyes cracking and my vision becoming less than half dimensional - Silence of the moment - my heart races to the emptiness of my resources - what can fix me? - The AA? -

I stare at the sky all the colours running into a swirl of cobweb lace - so low its going to wrap me in its haze, drag me into bliss - i wish it did - take me into another place - so i can see the true identity of my place - but here - is also where i want to be - im confused with my state of plee - i shut my heartbreak and decide to drive on..... Drive

No one is going to have the right screws to replace - the sadness on my face -

But it cant be too late - it cant be

I must drive back to me -