Taking out the rubbish

 Here in this freezing weather and start of a previous week 

I take out the rubbish 

It’s hard

Two big black bags one heavy one light

It’s freezing 

It’s eerie

It’s hard

My back hurts

But I won’t give in 

I don’t have all I want but I do have all I need

I can’t move others to move with me

But I can move myself

I can’t make others feel my pain 

But I can throw my pain out in the heavy black bag

Here in this week 

My only thoughts are with god

Only allah can get me through 

So ya ran help me

I will focus with you

Let me be a winner ya rab 

And let me choose the right choices

Mainly 

Never to stop 

What I want in life doesn’t exist so I must create it