Dream on … and what really is disappointment ?

 A belief in you that is false! 

I feel so so sorry for myself

I’m so many things

But mostly that  I actually had hope 

And strangely still do 

Which angers me 

At myself

Hope is my name and Pisces emotions run deep

It’s hard to burn it away when it’s the oceans that rule 

My tears fall

You frightened my heart she said

I just want to hug her

See her through 

I worry so much she is beautiful 

My beautiful eman 

And I’m so scared I’ll fail 

Just like others have failed Me

But I had a good one

I still do 

I have been supported

I feel sad

Really be careful what you wish for

A happy birthday all glamour

And yet deep down it just sucks

I am all alone

Bad I ask allah 

To help me 

To see me through 

To have mercy on me

And to help me finish my projects which the door is so hard and heavy to close

Ya allah help me 

Ya allah help me