untitled emptiness- Bullied

well
it looks like I'm all alone.....
I am the one who deserves to be all alone
I left God all alone didn't I?

It doesn't matter to him
he is never alone
but it matters to me
I can feel the emptiness of my actions
I can feel the pain of regret

People don't understand me?
that is becasue I dont get me

I am always looking for..... something dont kno where it is
I feel very alone at 8.37 am
........


10.36 am
how can I fix
the misery that is within
I spin
with the heavy loads I feel
I cannot bin
my anger
I cannot lose my despair

I saw something I shouldn't
I did something i mustn't
it's like my mum said
I am
weak
so weak
and at this age
back a whole age
it feels like I still need to cry about my bruised kneee
or being bullied

I feel bullied
by me
I feel down
I feel unhappy
even tho I have the world

IMAGINE!
I have the world
I am healthy
Iam happy
I SHould be happy
I have money
I have stability
I have safety
I have a family
I have faith
I have sense
I have a mind
I have power
i have stuff
I have lots of stuff


and yet,,,,
I feel

Bullied