I never usually 12

Ive wasted so many hours

i cannot waste any more

I have become a new person

i cannot turn old

I have in such a small time , changed a great deal

i cannot go back

i have spent so much time

i cannot stop now

suddenly i cannot stop now

i must love this pain

these treasures

but i must also live my life

right now

i feel like im hanging inthe air

lost in the wilderness of my future

misunderstnading my past

regretting things ive done

and not done

and right now

im losing even though i may be winning

you see

i only understand one thing now

and that is

that i am obssessed with this story

this love story

it has taught me one or two things

three or four things

five or six

it has made me leave one or two things

and begin three or four things

five or six

the idea is not just so superficial

but deep down within

i want to be her

i want to be that girl

who loves like that and is loved like that

i know its not paying

or asking

but i need to try for this

i need to live for this

for before i have lived for something else

i never want to be sick and tired of this love

never want to go away

never want it to leave me

I am here

and it is here

and i am believing

more than anything can enfold