The sting of fault

 I have to be paralysed 

The game is not on my side

Although it was by my rules but the rules have changed

By me

Suddenly I no longer feel on too I no longer care

I no longer deem myself fit to win 

So I am stung by my shame

Anger

Deceit to myself

Hurt 

Disgust

All of it

I am truly a mistake of anything

Am sick of it too 

Sick of myself

And then just when I change the games 

The others do toI 

For my benefit

But now I have no ability to override my control

I am powerless

I am  

Cemented on the ground of my own failure 

I cannot proceed after all of this great work or work that is possible to win that very tip I lose edge

I lose balance 

I lost it all