A mundane nightmare 2_ The last word

Im angry with myself
I let him get to me
I let him trVel here with me

.... u criminal i wont let u ruin my life in anyway or form
I wont let u beat me even unintentionally
You will not steal my mind my peace of mind
And u certainly wont give me tears
 
Here i am 
With my own efforts -

even though u took so much of it we still survive and better and 

we help each other to survive and here i am
Away from u and better than u cud ever imagine
Not a lot of people can imagine being here 
And certainly i couldnt imagine
But i got the job from the first try
From the first telephone even tho i was late an hour
And now im drinking cofee in cafe nero
 
But ive done a mistKe
I let u become a point a conversation with my dear love and hes right
I dont want u in my life either
I suddenly realised how strong a hold u still are 
How much strength ive given u
How much pain and worry ive let u cause me
And u dont matter a bit not a hair u dont matter like a grain of sand or dirt u are
So
I promise myself with this note 
I will never mention u again
I will never think of u Nd if i do i will say hasb lilahh wa nim alwakeel
And i will pray for my true family to have health and peace instead of 

wasting my time with u 
 
 
 
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