hello?

i miss this place
maybe its my only sanctuary
my only flower of a floating memory
may...
I get rid of all my pain
I think again before i speak
I stop hating myself and hating myself
I change what I want to who I want

sometimes i just hate everything about me
why cant i just do that or be that
no its
like im sanctioned
like my country

THAT... you cannot have
wont be downloaded into your system
that is blocked
cuz youre just in the wrong place
and in the wrong design

that YOu cant have
............

feeling sad
suddenly
feeling scared
from the abcsence within myself
from the surrendering ive allowed
from the questions ill have to ask


deep inside