many examinations that I will be distinct in

I wont even let the music stop
God, you examine me and im ready
im ready this time
my walls are up and will not will come down
i ask for health
i ask for wealth in patience
i ask for joy
i ask for forgettting bad things or things that seem bad
dear god I ask you let me stay
i want to stay
at least for this while
because i realise i havnt put any love in myself
im loveless
because its not inside me
ya rab
i need more time
please give it to me
please
so in return i will never waste time again