So long ago 4

they all trick me

beginning with myself

the angels and the sky

they all lie

starting with family, friends and any other people

they all say things they dont mean

most bestowed upon ,.by

myself

for i have tricked myself everyday and certainly everynight

I have tricked myself

daily

and now feeling the affects of it

continously

as a deep and ill grudge in the pit of my stomach

i feel heavy

i feel bland

i feel

cornered  amidst what pain previals

i feel down

i feel dizzy

i feel

nothing like what i want or should be

or worse

what people think of me