8- 1.5

Today I feel the game is over

yesterday I gave my love to faith 

and this morning its all over

Today I gave my heart away

it didnt wat to stay anyway

it hates me and all ive done

im not blaming it 

I would have done the same and been gone

Now I feel like a sac of lies

lying flat dead between the junction of cries

now I feel like i have really lost it all 

I cannot call for help

even though I need to yelp and yelp

I feel tormented I feel big

big with worry big with defeat

I feel ugly , in the monster seat

The game is changing fast and furious

I cannot chase I cannot be curious

to find the answer to find the speed

that makes me win 

without making me bleed

if i race i topple and break and smash

if i slow im forgotten im wasted i crash

if i normalise my gears want to change

my tyres :

front 

heart and mind

back

soul and body

start to tire

lose function

lose inspire

Today I feel like the battered sexy car

dying in the broken city of a forgotten star

its shine mystery gloss all burnt down

its love speed magic never again sound

just crumpled on the sidestreet 

nobody can see

that one day it was flying , so effortlessly