untitled hatred

I hate waiting
escpecially If youre talking to someone else
you chose them over me


I hate being second line
I hate being used
I hate feeling wrong
I hate being the enemy
being misunderstood
failing to achieve
i hate asking for something and being refused
I hate letting someone down
i hate being bored
being dirty
feeling closed
I hate feeling closed
I hate feeling there's no going back

I hate anticipating what others are thinking
i hate trying to imagine what they think of me
i hate waiting
i hate feeling cold
or hot

i hate being in control
but hten i hate losing it

I hate people asking me things I cannot do
I hate thinking of people that do not think of me
i hate thinking of people that dont deserve

i hate thinking
too much
I hate wondering
I hate guessing
guessing all the time
i hate feeling down all the time
I mean like my cards are the ones turned
but the truth is
all my cards are up
and I am the one with all the good things
but they make me feel like I dont have anything

and that is my fault
I pull my cards back down
by thinking what people think

of me