I... must want this

I... have never felt like this
I want to be calm and spiritul
like..this was meant to be
and I know
of beautiful romances under gazing suns and moonlight
already scripted
...flawless with doubt
yet..
I feel I can't stop myself from being silly
I want this to be real
real real
not fake real!
I want this to be mine
iwant to take care of it like a precious jewel no one has ever found
I want this to be non invaded
even by me
for I a mthe greatest enemy
I am weak
I am impatient
I am .... unknown
I want this