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Yesterday something inside me broke even further as if my heavy heart was not already tearing the bridge over the fire apart 

My ears attest to kindness and a relationship that is not mine 

I sit in the dark sad and lonely waiting for sleep to come

Waiting to refresh my anger 

But no amount of anything can now take this pain away 

Here I am 

This big 

Yet this invisible 

Utterly and completely useless 

I remember mama nagat 

Here is part 2 of it 

2023

When no one cared …. Really 

Ignoring her and allah thought 

Your time will come too 

Here it is only 20 years earlier 

 Yesterday I realised I am far 

Reels cannot save me, neither can biscuits 

And these tears only blur 

I am only a filler 

Maybe silicone cheap kind too 

But I certainly am not … important

I certainly am not clever 

That one should stay and whoever told you that doesn’t know anything! They said about me from afar . Conclusion done. 

And worse I am not kind 

I saw the lady waiting for the gate to open with my id card blatantly glaring 

I scream 

Because Im sick but No one knows that 

Mama nagat was lonlier than me she never ever screamed 

She was kind 

So I wait to enter that period 

Of letting things happen and staying quiet 

Things I wish 

Someone caring to speak with me 

Truly speak with me