They say

Being rejected is the same feeling a physical pain 

Never mind by your own one 

And after a big try 

Here is me thinking I did well 

When I didn’t 

48/60 in fact

Cheapest of the earth results

I couldn’t even pass the easy stuff 

Like making her like me 

The preference is real

The pain is also 

Here I am with a real deficit 

Being unliked

Being in comforting

 Having to resort 

It’s sad when I’m this pathetic

… everyone thinks I’m just a disappointed idiot 

When I’m not 

I’m really a smart fool 

One is afraid 

Feelings raw feelings unworthy

Feelings broken

Shattered by the hammer of further torment 

Ridicule is a sharp misery

And here it is

Breaking the soul

No matter what I do 

I’ll never get there