This isn’t going to work 2

Things are not happening with you 

There’s no point saying I’m kind 

When I’m not

Decision fatigue 

They say

People count on me to make good choices and the bad news is I’m not

Escpecially those who need me most

Because I’m too busy thinking about all the busy messy horrible things 

I scream

I shout my face all swollen and inflamed

I am inflamed

In feelings that are a nuisance

Do the right thing under the wrong conditions 

People speak to meanly and so so I speak bad at others meanly

The circle of nightmares

I don’t want to be like this 

I have no happiness in me right now 

To give to her

I am for sure strong 

But strength isn’t meanness

And strength isn’t now

And strength isnt winning either 

If this then that.