Lost in nothing

Here i am... The angels around me... But they break with all this unnecessary hurt im giving them ... And here i am tarnished when i should glisten and here i am in despair when i should be so thankful and here i am in fear when i should be in calmness and here i am in trouble when i should be strong and meaningful and here i am in weakness when i should be in beautiful control and here i am in sadness when i should compare and here i am in madness when i should understand it all and here i am in lonliness when i have the best and here i am in ugliness when ihave all the beauty and here i am in total confusion when i should simply be ... Present