Dear allah ... Thank you for today , for this, for now

Here i am

In a balcony almost unbelieving of my gratitude

From the simple silence that hosts the miracle of a 4.07 am balcony

Where u will never find this peace here like this

A miracle

I let the cool wind embrace me 

Another kindness

And the stuff that came

Another prayer answered

And 40 days in 

Another day counted as a blessing

For here i am 

Under the umbrella of allahs giving 

And yet

Am a nervous wreck

My head hurting my body trembling

My mind a cold sweat

Diseased with worry

But this balcony saves the day

Sways the night

And heals me

For my body doesnt need this right now

No it doesnt need this stress

Rather it needs to be reminded how glorious it is

How wondrous it is

How amazing its doing

And im expexting from it only what allah desires

Ya allah help me reach whrre i yearn

Let it my time 

Let it come and relax me

Help me and protect me

Mainly frommyself

For i kno u wil only give me what i cam handle