I am a brilliant app

All over again? My own fault? My bad memories my strengths my fears my weaknesses? What about my laziness my despair my wish to be that oneand yet doing nothing about it

When i saw her today i remembered our tutorials and how 1 day i was the best i certainly felt it but today although i was there i wasnt there in soul for deep down i was troubled my own setbacks , not her successes 

3 years - my brain cells slowly wither away fir i have not used them

I also felt powerful today. I knew things wven though those were not backed up except 3 years ago- so i imagined whatwould happen if i had backed it up

I am choosing differently

I am trying

How many choices yeaterday and today

Whole burger meal but not 279 hamburger

Not too many not too many

I thought that curved jacket was gorgeous

A real treat

I am proud of myself for finding it

I still have 5 days to go

And 30 to lose

And clouds to learn

And things i already have that i should use

My battery will cut on my phone

And sowill the battery one day in my geart but until then...

I am and i am and i am a beautiful smart woman like a brilliant app but just underused 

When i