no miracles here...

I am... lost
I suddenly understand that my body is an empty
vessel
onewithout thought
or emotion, patience or respect
who am I?
a lost woman

lost for thought
for productivity
for understaning
for kindness
for purity....
purity
yes for that



a trangressor ..I am just living in the wrong position



wanting all the right things
but all the ticks cannot be met

like the english
wont happen 
if its not correct


and im just not correct
im all ...wrong
all wrong


all broken
and intimitately heartless
all insanely stuck



and unable to take myself through
miracles or unanswered questions


no 
there will be no miracles here