Inability 1

There is no more inability
no feeling of instability
just fresness in my heart
strength
yes I can do it
no i will not fail

No more insecurity
these feelings of anger
for they dont deserve
and i dont deserve to
...angry
for anger is just a form of pain
missing healthy silence within me

No more infidelity
to myself
always breaking my own heart
always lying to myself
always telling myself the wrong thing

no,
now its time for honesty
integrity
isnt that what they asked?
isnt that they want?
and i dont want to lie

I want to be better first to llah
then to myself
then ..to my sweet family


Ya Allah
i asked and yougave
and i thank you so much
please help me
and never let me be alone
Ya Allah
i want to change
 and next time im seen and felt am heard
I want to be steady
and ready
for a woman inside me yelling to break free

 Ya Allah
I dont her to cry no more
they say she cant stop talking
I cant stop crying... inside


because i see myself unable to reach my full ability
and im tired of just seeing inability
...............

 I want to be like these nemophilas
fresh, clear, adamant, proud, strong,great  and ..... beautiful