Ya Allah..help me

Ya Allah let me as fashionable as gold satin with red design
or is dark green mesmerising sublime
or magnificent caramel sugary with lady
or brand new navy shimmering a royal elegance
the cut is beautiful
the shine is right
Ya Allah let the roads be smooth , open for me a special pathway a
secret going
Ya Allah the piano enters my soul and I just want to fly fly into perfection
maybe into the woman I that creates me
a movie people wana see and a story people wana hear
I madea a mistake again and let my tongue run
who am I to hate? and who am  I to force others to hate
music is soft and heautiful
now how cold that be hell material?
am I heaven material?

Ya Allah let me me beautiful and kind
like how I did the right thing putting ginger biscuits in an empty handbag
of 90 years past and a beautiful mind
truly a beautiful mind
even though I may not understand or may not believe
I think he does have a beautiful mind
certainly better than mine
I write swift gotta go
visit Khartoum Streets

Ya Allah
love me even when i dont love myself