85 days until forever...

and I cant stop thinking about his smile
the way he makes me laugh
im never in denial that hes perfect for me
he reminds me of good men
good faithful men
of the past no longer here
and that the future badly needs


and Im working but changing the formations to write about him
you see hes always on my mind
and I just find, he steals my concentrations
I just have to stop concentrating to concentrate on him
and its really a troublesome situation
that im writing in pink about the beautiful realisation that hes mine forever
 
and I wonder how exact were my expectations of this dream to come alive?
and I think probably magical and heavenly that such a person would be in my life more than i
expected and deflected on my prayer mat
God gave me better 
like I asked him for a normal phone and he gave me a smart phone
or I asked for silver and he gave me gold
or I asked for happiness and he gave me happiness with completion...

and I know with patience and love, faith and  hope, hope and faith together ,
life is just wonderful, practical yet magical ,

(Ya Rab 
protect us and help us become better 
Ya Rab
I dont deserve your gratitudes and wonders but I am certainly praying that you forgive me and let me be worthwhile for this constructive religion)

with 85 days left to go 
....
Working properly and enjoying it
trying hard and harder
having patience 
depending on yourself and no one else
believing in better
knowing that you can do anything and everything
trusting yourself
wanting good things for yourself

is  one of the first pieces of healing for the best forever