unscheduled madness

its been a long time since i really thought
since i really wrote since
i really was a good woman
and i feel sorry for myself
for pain is unevitable
and terrible
to feel
I can still smell cologne of hte past
of beautiful school children so clean
of a house a home

and where am I in this mess?
the dirty
like mud
like sudanese water
unfiltered


I am unfiltered sudanese water