not yet

I am not in

it is not in movies, or books, it is not in other peoples stories or kisses, it is only in the my chapter still unopened, it is only in the time coming and not in the time gone , it is framed already and just waiting to be seen, it is loved by me even though i do not see it, but i am always so close to throwing away the glass and shattering it.... why? where is that good feeling gone? where is that strong inspiration run? where is that power and massive attempts ? where am i? and when will i come back? to fit my picture and my true strength