I did it! the first example of the bigger picture the better woman

AUGUST - the month of everything
something happened to me that angered me
I felt ridiculed and small
I felt being checked on
I felt like i wasnt believed
like someone thought I was telling a lie
I felt dissapointed in them
I felt like I could have told them all that

But i didnt
I became the better woman
and i saw the bigger picture
I  let it pass
I let my feelings of anger pass
I let the betterme win

one might think
you didnt fight
i did
i fought my soul that has always fought to stop and think
for once
for once
I didnt latch onto the primitive emotion
I caught the next one instead - the emotion of self control
and it was cleaner emptier and calmer

I like the feeling i got
i want to feel that again
not the other feelings
not at all

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