Day 11 - how can i be so ugly

How can I suddenly die like this
falter like this
fall like this
break like this
feel misery like this
in these wonderful days
how can i succumb like this
surrender like this
feel sorry like this
feel down like this
be weak like this
in these amazing days
how can I be lost like this
non beliveing like this
non understanding like ths
non blooming likethis
jealous like this

in these beautfiul days
how can i be so ugly?