I feel tormented

I feel tormented that i have wasted so much time
all this time
and now have barely time to do the thngs i had so much time to do
I feel tormented that no one tormented me but myself
  that here i am 2.12 am thinking about things i shouldnt be thinking of
and wanting things that i dont deserve
and feeling pain in all the right plces

my bleeding heart
my useless soul
my unforgiving mind

here i am feeling ashamed for all the unshame of forgotten time
i feel tormented that i have spent more hours onf acebook than hours reading the quran
that inshallah tomoro
im going to have barely enough time to breathe
just about

YA RAB
I ask you in this strange and beautiful night let me continous in my freedom
YA RAB you deserve the bbest