shake , shake , shake all your heaviness away

I think to myself  there are 2 really important dreams that i want
out of those 2, 1 I can achieve right now, one Icanget right now
God has given everything i need to get it to have it
and he has abled me to do it


and yet i cry
i scream
i beg for the other

like a silly child
IMUSTHAVEWHATIDIDNOTGET!


I think
If he gave me this then Ido not want it
I only want what i do not have


and yet today i was hurt

i thought
I am in the background because i decided to be
I am in the background because this is how hard i tried

I think
what
am I
missing to be on the top??


nothing



and yet i am missing everything



everything