16-60.5

another weekend , another week, another time, another crime, another , crime of waste of time......

but this time
this time
everything was different
I could do something I couldn't do for a long time and  I felt
like i was holding on
even though
 I am tired even though I am weak
I feel


able to communicate wit h the most difficult and unaccesible part of me

my soul

i feel for the first time in a long time

I have the upper hand
and i am not pushed to the ground
I feel like I have won a batle
def not the war...yet
but I feel ....like I have definitely won a battle

and I feel proud
I feel strong.....er
not strong

no im still diong wrong

but I feel weak.,...less
and meaning...ful
and a....ble
to do something harder


I feel like listening to music
like waking up early
like feeling hungry
like feeling energetically tired
like being forgiven
i feel like being forgiven
like being amazing
today I feel like being amazing
and powerfull
yes
I want to be powerful today
and


I want to be
Insanely beautiful......