Echoes in my mind_(without the sin)

a new baby girl is born far far away... and i am still sad so near
i think
creations and deprivations hand in hand
I have deprived myself of breathing, living nicely, happily alive
and it is my hand on my neck choking all young within me strangling all sweet next to me
un
natural amidst the beautiful singing of a newborns song
strange the same name and I am still wrong
 the unpredictable curled way they are and  the smallest touch makes them wriggle
and the sweetest smell makes me smile and the coincidence makes me for a moment , just a young instant make me feel fine

and yet i am unpleased with gods plan
i am accompanied by abnormality
by residuality
of a terrible affair
______________________
maybe you are right
but maybe you are the wrong perosn for the right person
how would you feel if were the wrong person ?
are you sure God wants you to meet the right one ? maybe they are wrong too you just havnt realised it yet

for a small moment I feel calm
I feel calm thinking of a young dream
watching a beautiful dream
tempted to go the right way