ALL

i think you're a liar
and it hurts me to think that you're a liar
so much so the pin goes riht through me like
a lightning stike

I want to depain myself
so ilook at love
i look at pure love
noconditions
and i want to melt forever in the harmoney of that beauty
each time I stop
I want to die
my tears cannot be controlled
my mind cannot be harmonised with life

 i think you're a decieving liar
I feel it in my heart
I feel it so much
it makes all my fingers bleed and my eyes water and my soul linger in the broken void i have
its so big
i canont fill it
i have tried

but its so big
this huge big voide inside me
filled with your lies
i cannot fill it

and yet all this pain
buds a loving seed
and yet all this sorroww comes a simple affection
that makes me regret the first part of this poem
that makes me hate my eyes and my soul and my heart


I think I am just being tricked around
a bit by you
a bit my soul
a bit my heart
and a combination of me

lost
angry
hurt
confused
trapped

If eel trapped in my body
i feel so sad that i feel like this
i feel so guilty that i turned out like this

....a part of me is afraid im going to be punished
i feel so wicked
i feel so bad

i feel like i have been driven to this ending road left there
with no way to return


i miss the good in me
i miss me
i miss who I am
i miss who I was
i miss who i want to become
I miss when this suffereing was not happening

i just miss it .................ALL