severely pretending

bewildered by a strange state of mind
lost int ranslation lost then I find
my thoughts broken into a thousand spaces
and my wants stretched in a million places
simply possibly it cannot be
I will lose out
on the desires of success
and retire in mess

Ya lama hina ya lama hina

what is it exactly that i want to become

do i want to be smartest girl in the world?
do i want to be the sweetest girl in the world?
Do I want to be the most faithful girl in the world?
Do i want to be the most romantic?
Or do i want to be the most desired/
Or do I want all of them?

if I want all of them I must have all of them not pretend!
and right now I am severely pretending
crazily attending to my every loss
come here
and sit down
and do not go anywhere
but your viscious weakness

come here stay down
and never get up to reach out to success
 but i can be successful
I can be beautiful
and clever
and romantic
and determined
and sweet
and unfevered
all at the same time

I can do it all
without severely pretending


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