replace me today

Dear God,

I have to go I should be there now
But I just want to say
I miss you and i love you
you are the love of my life
always
no matter how faw away I get something always pulls me back
saves me
and that is that
My love for you
I know everything is all messed up
yesterday, the day before
but I know that one day, today
it will start
my journey back to yyou
where I will find you dramatically
I am in great need for this love for you
and I beg you to ....never give up on me

I am sorry I always gave my troubles to everyone but you
I am sorry that i felt I had troubles in the first place

I am sorry that I didnt find it in me to be strong enough to stop myself
I am sorry that I was never strong enough for you
and thtath urts me
more than anything

dear God
I bed your forgiveness
your help
I need you all the time
even though I do not show that all the time
please for give me