Please god, let me do the right thing

where is love? they ask themselves, I ask myself where is love?
suddenly I cannot hear it
I cannot feel it
I cannot touch it
Suddenly I am so lost it hurts
I am so afraid it is dramatic
I am so unhappy it is tormenting
when you make a mistake a big one
when you make something  that seeds lifeless hope
you become hopeless
suddenly I cannot imagine why I did
why I wrote
why I said
really what goes around comes around
Dear God
I did mistakes
Dear God I cannot lie
Dear God as much as I am bad I am a lot  lot good
Dear God I WILL not tell a lie
change the truth?
Dear God you were there
I messed up badly
Subhan Allah how I m still tormented
Dear GOd - I must accept your punishment but please God do not punish my parents as well
Dear God - Show me what to do
Dear God I do not want to do soemthing just because I am afraid
just because I am afraid
just because someone told me to
Dear God - i am sorry
you have given me all this education and I have thrown it away
Dear God am I like her?
Dear God can i live like this? or like that forever/
Dear God if it is meant to be let it happen
I am not afraid of your goodness upon me I am not afraid of what is good for me I am not afraid of what is right for me I am not afraid of what you have  in store for me I am not afraid of what you want for me you yyour dreams for me your opinions your actions your words I am not afraid Dear God of what you have written for me
I am only afraid if I reject it without knowing - if I miss it without seeing if I go past it without stopping If i take something else without knowing
Dear God i beg of you to never let me do that
only let me take what is right for me
No one in in the middle between your plans and I
Dear God do not let me think of things wrong
let me have a straight head
let me have a right mind
let me do the right thing
Dear God I know i missed doing the right thing a lot of times
let me do the right thing now
Please God let me do the right thing