Happy late belated april fools

It's 2.09 am in themorning I may add...th peak hours of a new day.... its silences since the loud invasion of noise stopped.... I feel like someone was hammering drums.... noisy drums so close to me for the whole day and now its stopped my muscles ache I dont want to be here ....there is cool refreshing glass ofwater sitting on my left hand side it looks surrealo simple so elgant so clean so calm it looks like something out a dream ot of a heavenly picture just this calm full glass of cool beautiful water next to me my mobile phone lies near it loosely no the table angles mislaigned with the corners of time i have not checked it in a while... i have an urge I want to know what it olds ....but now there is silence just the sound of the soft touch of my fingertips with the clicks of the keyboard it sounds like .... the sweetness of words being written something mving in my head this is what the inside of my brain should sound like fomulated kindness with spoken word everything should e so simple and yet i chooe i not to be everyday i insist on investing in thousands of time in other people problems everyday i ask to pay fpr hundreds of stuggling emotion everyday my back hurts and my knees ache and my chest gets tighter with emprisonment everyday I lose myself when all I want is to be like htat free glass of cool calm water.... ______________ who is that I'm tricking who i s it being tricked who was april fools day played on is it everyday april fools is played on me...................................