it's not THAT kind of love

it's not that I don't want love
It's not that I'm not thinking of him or him or him
It's just that It's amazing how something in your life can make you forget the nightmares
make you feel gold again
all by yourself
make you feel promised and non invaded

It's not that I am not looking for love
But if you read it
if you analyse it
I am looking for a different kind of love
a different type of miracle
not like last
not like yesterday
not even like the words I wrote in the last post
no
I am looking for ......a moring dew cold and sunny
whispering but loud
deserted passionate unused but charged dramatically kind of love
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