I suddenly realise

I suddenly realise what it truly feels like to be me
that 's to stop underestimating myself
to never sell my dreams and to live them no matter how expensive they are


I suddenly cannot sleep
and I love it
although I am tired
I have been exhausted for longer than ever


I suddenly feel all my body ache
I adore it
it makes me feel alive
it makes me feel

I suddenly feel strong
nothing can break me
as long as i have God's Protection
I am safe

I suddenly realise
God is near
he's always been near
I am the one who couldnt see

I suddenly realise

I am going to succeed
this is my monthly discovery
I will succeed
in everything that I do

I Suddenly realise this is hard but easy at the same time
and i realise I have wasted time
but that time that time
is like saved energy
is like massive expanses of usage all now packed in a moment
for me to see
never again
and only again
will I live

I Suddenly realise
my Whole life is for God
i live to go to heaven
I will not die on earth without having lived THAT dream...............