A few days left until the New Year
I want to exctinct my fear
I want to forget tears
I am sad because I dont do what I want
I dont achieve what I desire
I dont listen to who I am
I dont do anything to make myself happy
and so getting up in the morning becomes a nightmare
I am never strong enough
I am never quick enough
later in the grades of faith
I will be so low
I will be so low
and my beauty will be rotten
there will come a time when my beauty will be irreversible
I wont be able to fix it
I wont be able to have it
and the more alienated I am from myself and body
the more alienated I Will be from God
and vica versa
the more further I am from faith
the more further I am from what I am inside
Your blog is like my thoughts well articulated! Too many of your posts hit home, it's like reading my inner struggle, emotions and all.
ReplyDeleteI hope that one day I'll be able to convey them as images and words in at least half the capacity that you are able to do.
May Allah grant you inner peace, happiness and prosperity always. And may He strengthen your passions in this Duniya and the Hereafter, because trust me when I say this, we need more people like you.
Thank you for sharing! I need to come on here more often and go through your posts. From one Sudanese Truth Seeker to another, much love your way.
Salam.