just thinking 3

I close my eyes and imagine dreams intensifying behind closed rainbows of fearless african colour
colour of love
colour of time
colour of joy
as if the heat of all moments was just eyelids away
you smile and I know what you want
I know what I want


the desert has melted with love for us
we make compassion
we make honesty
we make faith

I close my eyes and see the african storm suddenly calm down
for it is watchin us and we are stronger
I close my eyes and see the nile tremble
for we are waves of passion greater
I close my eyes and see the streets blush
for we stop red faster
I close my eyes and see a shooting star living
I close my eyes and see my shooting star

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But then I am jolted from a dream into everything I am today
everything that made me and brought me
into position to be changed by everything here and not there

where africa dreams too
and sunrise
... we wait for together
and sunset colours escape into the night


it is all taken away from me

by sudden memory
by sudden fury
by sudden unwishful thinking
by everything maddening and nothing meaning
happiness

everything is beautifully taken away


I have to open my eyes